Everything became easier. Being by myself, disregarding the little hickups, is refreshing and empowering. I gained a little weight, I started working out to tone myself, I eat well and I even found someone to keep me in place. All the rage gathered for the last months went away, just it was never in me. I am not vengeful anymore. I found peace. And not in myself. But through her eyes.
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Some say that happiness comes from within you, and it`s not about relationships, inanimate things or people around you. Some might even say you don`t need anything to be happy. Wrong. You need people in your life. You need things to do. Like work or hobbies. Loneliness is what kills the joy of life. It`s when the dark inside tries to get out and take over. But, then again, being alone is just a state of mind. There`s always someone at the other end of a phone call, or a written message.
I walk a narrow path. I find my strength in trivial things. They`re just as important as the big things in my life. If not more. Every failure means I got to another crossroad. Even if I get hurt, I can move on, knowing I tried my best.
For everything good that happens in our lives, something bad is following. It`s the Universe` way of telling us everything must be balanced. The equilibrium of our inner world depends on it. As a half to a whole, I`m still waiting for my share. As long as I`m prepared, I will be able to embrace anything thrown in my way.
I keep myself busy every day. Moving on, at my own pace. Ups and downs, it`s all I can do right now. Not my choice, but I dealt with it. I`m fighting the “normal” with my every breath. But I`m so tired. Continue reading
Dreams long forgotten. Wishes that never came through. Hard work in vain and time lost. These should`ve been the defining stats for me. But something beautiful happened. I am allowed to hope and dream again.
Although she ripped my heart out and trampled all over it, I am at peace with myself. I have learned a long time ago not to regret the things I do. Even tho` it was not my choice, I moved on. I understood what it`s like to be a kid and to live your life at the fullest. I remember myself. Surrounded by friends, there`s always something new and exciting to do. And i did it all. I mean ALL. I was a fool to deny her the same. Continue reading